Letter to Big Brother

I grew up under you.
Ya taught me every life lesson I didn't learn the hard way.
To be honorable to people,
To never downplay my own intelligence,
Never fight with anything other than words and be kind to everyone regardless of their ignorance towards me.
Never allow anyone to take advantage of you and for those times you fall short, your brother will ALWAYS be there to protect you and give you another lesson.

The older I get, the more I hold onto those necessary lessons.
However, I've recognized everywhere along the way,
A few lessons, I've ignored and I've done a lot of bad.
not sure if the good can compare.
You were never the type to tell me things will be ok or that I was right in this situation or that.
Instead, you used every opportunity to help me learn more effective ways of doing what I needed to do.
I'm grown now, and when I think that I have it all figured out and that I know what I am doing in life and where I'm going, my reality check happens when I call you, big brother.
Reminding me that living in mediocrity and settling for less while focusing on the absolute wrong things in life is why the life I like to glamorize is nothing but what it is... and I can do better.
Having set an example of how to do what you need to do in life, I understand why seeing what I've become may frustrate you.
Well, big brother, I need a new lesson and I know how you would prefer to teach me about life, but right now, I need to know, why are people so cruel?
Why is this world and life so cruel?
Regardless of all the prep work you did to set me up for my future, I wish the side notes spoke of the unbelievable nonsense that life would put us all through.
Teach me not to wear my heart on my sleeve and the value of being strong.
Because when I show too much strength, it's mistaken for a lack of emotions.
But when I'm alone, I feel alone, I cry alone and I don't want to be alone.
Teach me new things big brother. I am never too old for life lessons.
Love,
Little sis.