So good at a broken heart

I am an expert at this part
No stranger to a broken heart
I clung to your everything you'd say
I believed when you talked about someday
Hanging by a thread full of weight
But you continue to tell me to wait
But you will come to realize it's too late
I can't take anymore
This will be my last hoorah
The last cry
Last break and the VERY LAST TIME
I have finally been defeated
But this hurt won't be repeated
No one should EVER experience this world
Too bad for our girl
Momma doesn't want to be here
I'm sorry you would have to
But I've always loved you
I've loved the idea of my daughter
Since before I ever knew her father
I've loved the man who gave me the world
But loving too much for this type of hurdle
I truly can't get over
But this is all over
I refuse to go numb, my hair falling out
I'm breaking up as the inside I shout
I have remained here for everyone else,
But life proves how much everyone loves themselves
no room in your hearts
I've been too incomplete
Not enough love for me
How can I when I have never gotten it right
I just want it to be done tonight.
I'm home alone and nothing in my way
I don't have to worry about the next day
Why have I never been good enough?
Why MUST I cry EVERY night?
Why must I hurt?
Why do I have to die a little at a time
When I know I can end this and no one will care tonight?
I think of their faces...
The children I have
I can't bare to break them the way
I'm down on the inside
If it weren't for those faces,
I would have already done it.