Is it impossible?

Is it difficult to believe that it can strike you at anytime? That love thing? That it takes a while for the brain to catch up to the heart, but once the two are in sync, the magnificence of how smooth that overwhelming power can be just takes your breath away?
Well, I'm struck. Finally, I am in sync. I know what my heart needs. I know what my life needs to be complete. It's funny how all my life, I have struggled to find myself. To find that spunky girl that has no trouble attracting people. Only now, when I finally feel as if I deserve everything that I have been searching for or more hoping than searching that it still seems so far out of reach. Because as much as I am in tune with my emotions, my heart, my feelings... I still am not sure that the one who holds my heart has his own in tune. I think he may have given up on love. But the day we start believing that love doesn't exist, that should be the day that all worlds collide. The day that conscience has a run in with right or wrong and we all choose wrong. Dare I continue to hope that his hearts rhythm will one day match my own. Until then, I shall hide it. I will love without purpose if his own purpose is to follow his desires elsewhere. For this, I am no martyr.. maybe a coward. But nevertheless, a slave to love.